AAARRRGGGHHH!!!

Email recieved today from AWAA:

"Many of you have inquired about the referral process and current wait time. Unfortunately, it appears that the wait time has increased to 11-12 months from the time a Dossier is logged into the CCAA (China Center of Adoption Affairs) until a referral. This information is based upon the CCAA's recent posting on their website (http://www.china-ccaa.org/frames/index_unlogin_en.jsp) regarding the referrals processed for March. According to their website, families with Dossiers logged in from May 26, 2005 through May 30, 2005 will be receiving referrals this month. As mentioned in the February Monthly Update, America World's only May log in dates were May 10th and May 12th, so we will not be receiving referrals again this month which we know is very disappointing news."

Translated: "You won't get a referral in March or April, probably late May or late June."


Yes this is disappointing, very disappointing, but we know that God's timing is better than ours and He has a plan better than our plan.

Translated: We're pretty tired of bad news. This has been a VERY long, emotionally draining, faith challenging journey and we just want to reach our destination. Enough of the tests!

If you think this BLOG was gonna be alot of feel good, everything goes right posts, well life just doesn't work that way and I like dealing with real life. People go through stuff! Brandi and I go through stuff! We don't think there is anything wrong with expressing disappointment or frustration.

Our disappointment and frustration does not mean God isn't in control. It just means our teeny tiny minds can't comprehend or see the Almighty God's bigger, better plan and it's frustrating sometimes. I believe it's healthy to say that out loud sometimes. Might as well say it out loud, He knows our thoughts and ways anyway, right? I think He can handle it.

I feel better already.

More to come....